Well, I suppose the title of this journal isn't entirely accurate. I've still been active on this account, as you can tell from things like comment replies and a changing list of Favourites. As a content creator, however, I have been absent, and I have only myself to blame for this. You all do deserve an apology, especially because the only other update I've given to my whole audience since last year is a status update from April. Therefore, I am sorry that I have not been giving my Fans what they want from me for the past 360+ days. Additionally, you all deserve to know why I haven't been delivering, and that's the biggest reason why I'm giving you all this update.
When I first started posting captions in November of 2014, it took me a little while to get into my groove. In my first month I only posted 15 captions. However, not long after the new year began, I posted captions daily. This lasted quite a while, too, as many of my older Fans know. I looked through my gallery and saw that daily posts seemed to slowly fade away throughout summer 2015; and by the end of September, I had completely transitioned from posting one caption a day to a few captions a week. That was a downgrade in and of itself, but even that didn't last long. I resumed daily posts for a full week leading up to Halloween to celebrate 100,000 pageviews since I didn't have any other form of celebration ready at the time, but things just went downhill after that. After I posted my Thanksgiving caption, I didn't post another caption for almost an entire month. Then came my Christmas 2015 caption (a day late, mind you), then a Fan under the alias Nebula11 wrote a caption for me that I uploaded (with her permission), and then... nothing. I haven't posted a single caption since then.
So, what's with the history lesson? I don't know how important it was to explain all of that; in retrospect, it was pretty much just me venting through my keyboard. That being said, it helps me explain why I haven't been posting. I started writing captions years before I even created this account. I had (and still have) a Microsoft Word document containing all of my main captions and their accompanying pictures. In fact, I have over 1,200 caption headings in that document. That's the reason I was able to post captions regularly for so long: I had so many captions written ahead of time that all I had to do before posting them was to edit them into picture files.
Before I go on, I should explain the process of how I write my captions: When I get an idea for a caption, I typically put it in the word document, give it a title, name and number the picture file accordingly, and write a brief summary. Then, when I feel up to it, I write the full caption. A vast majority of those 1,200 headings are only summaries, but I have well over the 110 normal captions (which are the only ones in that word file: I have separate files for requests, holiday captions, long series like Playtime With Lizzie, etc.) on this account completed. I haven't been posting those captions due to the "teamwork" of laziness and OCD. If I wanted to rearrange the order of captions posted here, I would force myself to go into the document, copy and paste stories from much later on, adjust numbers in caption headings, and fix the numbers in the image files. This isn't really that much work, but I'm a very lazy person when it all comes down to it.
There you have it, then. That's the big reason why I haven't posted a single caption since December 26, 2015. Unfortunately, I didn't write this with the intention of telling you, "Hey, I've returned to posting captions." I still don't know when that practice will resume. The only "comfort" I have for those of you who want to see new content from me regularly is a quote that I heard from a big YouTuber: "Prepare for the worst, and hope for the best." I know that a lot of you love my captions. I feel somewhat narcissistic saying this; but in terms of statistics, I'm very big in the TG-caption community. Even after about a year of inactivity, I have more watchers than oldies like MisfortunateCostumes and newcomers like Veronicas-Secret, both of whom are among my favorite TG-caption authors. I'm not trying to start any sort of drama by saying this, for I don't think that having more watchers is at all inherently the same as being more popular. I'm only pointing it out to emphasize that I have a lot of potential, and I'm doing a very poor job of living up to it.
So, what should you expect from me in the near future? I truly want to return to posting captions regularly, but I'm such a lazy and unmotivated person that I don't know how likely it is to happen. I will try to think of something for my final Holly caption for New Year's, but I can't guarantee it. I did have another idea, however. Several years ago, I wrote quite a lot of a story called "Femecha." Without even looking back at it, I know it's chock-full of unrealistic elements and overall cringe, but it holds a special place in my heart as one of my first big TG stories that I stuck to for quite a while. I may post it in chapters in the near future, but I must reinforce that there is no guarantee I will do it. If I do, however, I will probably refrain from making any modifications—from spelling corrections to removing filler text—to the story. If I try to change it even a little bit, I'll end up trying to change more and more of it until I either get tired of changing it or make it a completely new story. On the bright side, I do have the excuse that I wrote it a long time ago, and I'll probably end up making that disclaimer at the beginning of each chapter.
Anyway, that's all I have to say for now. Thank you all for sticking with me, no matter when you started watching me. Happy holidays, Fans!